Struggling souls catch light from other souls who are fully lit and willing to show it. If you would help to calm the tumult, this is one of the strongest things you can do.
There will always be times when you feel discouraged. I too have felt despair many times in my life, but I do not keep a chair for it. I will not entertain it. It is not allowed to eat from my plate.
The reason is this: In my uttermost bones I know something, as do you. It is that there can be no despair when you remember why you came to Earth, who you serve, and who sent you here. The good words we say and the good deeds we do are not ours. They are the words and deeds of the One who brought us here. In that spirit, I hope you will write this on your wall: When a great ship is in harbor and moored, it is safe, there can be no doubt. But that is not what great ships are built for.
"You were made for this", Clarissa Pinkola Estees
Maintaining contact and connection with the Islands happens in a rainbow of ways. Yesterday for example, I was at Mukilteo State Park. Parked at the edge of the beach, I sat behind the wheel of 'Scout' the Subaru waiting for the squall to pass through. It IS the month of rains, as it might be almost any time of the year in the Pacific Northwest. No, really, the rains are back in force this month so I waited before getting out to make my o'o carrying walk along the sloping rock-strewn shore. Getting out to the edge of big water/ocean/Puget Sound/a lake/a river is one of the 'cures' that helps me detoxify the affects of an MCS episode. This week the affects of the formaldehyde from the construction next door is what I'm working on. Oxygen rich air from ke kai or ka wai (salty or fresh water marshes) is a major fix. I truly wish Puget Sound was warm enough to swim in, aue, it is not. So, I settle for a walk and not disappointed.
The theme of new beginnings and sweeping the ground or cleaning out the old before new planting can begin has been on my mind, and on the blogs. Lunar new year, the lessons learned during the year passed, our attending to the astral planes, and Mahina all add to my very full and deep life. Being very Scorpio with an 8th House packed with planets and connections to other parts of my astrological chart, "inheritance" both the present life lessons and the soul inheritances of the ancestors weighs heavy for me. Hawaiians relate that inheritance as a responsibility and the concept (more than simply a single word) of KULEANA may be appropriate. What I wrestle with and have for decades, is the balance between living a healthy and joyful life now while attending to the inheritance of my history as a Hawaiian woman. It's way beyond just ignoring that things are still not right. Occupation and colonization is a dynamic reality, and it appears this ecological colonization is birthing a new 'science' called Astrastalgia.
I thought it might help to include two resources that help me as I look for balance with that inheritance tax/kuleana of my historic burdens. Finding my way through the psyche and responsibility of ancestral abuses is no easy journey. All o'o available, in any and all forms, big, little and unexpected serve the Makua on her way to becoming kupuna. Answers come from all sort of places, yes?
NORTH & SOUTH NODE ASTROLOGY
Elizabeth Spring, astrologer and Jungian pyschologist looks at the ancestral legacy carried in the placement of the nodes of the moon. Study of the moon is big on my passion lists. I love the views and the news that come from the relationship between Papa Honua (Earth) and her only moon Mahina. Let me count the ways. I have just begun to appreciate the importance of the South and North Nodes in a person's astrological chart. What helps is to see how my South Node in the 10th House (with Scorpio) amplifies my already Scorpio and Pluto rich inheritance. At the other end of the chart, the North Node for me is in Taurus. There's my window for easing the burden ... my opportunity to ease-up.
At this age, it will be worth my energy to choose easing up. Check out the link to Elizabeth Spring's blogs for a bit of insight.
Sudden Rush performs the Gabby Pahinui classic memorial to the healing water of Hi'ilawe (the twin waterfalls) in Waipio Valley on the island of Hawai'i. I love how Sudden Rush consistently take their committment to the front of the class, and onto the stage. The final line in their contemporary rap braided with Gabby Pahinui's inimitable rendition of Hi'ilawe crosses all bounderies and opens up the young to the value of a renassaince they might never have know, save for the men of Sudden Rush.
The last line from that song does it for me!
"I thought I told you that we not pau
I thought I told you that we not pau..."